Fell A Bit Behind

Did I mention in a previous post that I am bad at jumpin on here and updating? LOL.. guess this proves it since it's been over a week since I posted something. What can I say? Life is busy when you have a little man around. I went back to work last week on the 18th of February and it was very hard to do. I thought I was going to be able to handle leaving Josiah because he would be with my mom. Boy was I wrong. She had watched him for a few hours while I was on maternity leave and that's why I figured I'd be ok. Turns out, there is a BIG difference between leaving but knowing there is the ability to say "ok I miss him, I'm going to go pick him up now" and leaving him knowing that I couldn't just go get him when I missed him. Reality set it when I was getting ready to leave that day and when I picked him up to hug him and say goodbye, I lost it. I cried all the way to work that day lol. I tried to compose myself before walking in and it seemed to have work, until right as I got to my desk, someone asked "oh hows the baby" and I broke down in tears again lol. It's funny how emotions just take over, even when you think you're alright. Well i've been back to work for over a week now and that first day was my only emotional day. I do miss him all day long while I'm away from him but I know he's in good hands. Aaron hasn't been getting scheduled a whole lot at work so between him and my mom, I know Josiah will be taken care of while I'm gone for the day, no matter which one he's with. Aaron is a wonderfal daddy.

I dont think I could have gotten any luckier when it comes to Aaron. Not only is he an awesome daddy, he's a great friend, lover and support system. Before he came along, I really started doubting I would ever find anyone who I could possibly spend the rest of my life with. But one trip to Blockbuster changed all that =) I could see myself being with him forever and one day we will make that final. We're just not in a rush because it's just a piece of paper really, we dont need that to know that we love each other and our little family. Here's a picture I snapped of us and I'll be back later to update some more =)